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December 24, 2008
I wonder at this time of year. I wonder at my endings and beginnings, hopes and fears, losses and lessons, dreams and memories, my yearning and need, my abilities and frailties, my hope and my heart. At this time particularly when our minds would mark this life’s tumult of feelings in the infinite, invisible spin of time as a ‘year’ of suns and moons, a year of being tossed about by the inexorable push and pull of our breathing universe. I wonder at the phenomenon of existence: that we are part of all that is, that it is and that we are…here.
And I wonder at our capacity for love, that we can choose this as a heaven.
December 22, 2007
Christmas Message from Paul
I suppose the thing I know best about this time of the year is my yearning and what I feel of the world’s yearning. For peace…for love…understanding…some gentleness…compassion and light. In the birthplace of the Judeo/Christian mythology, where this was originally the longest and darkest day and night of the year…when it seemed that the darkness would never leave and light would never return…our ancestors chose the plant that is always green, the ‘Ever’-green tree, and decorated it with gifts and entreaties to bring back the light. Our Christmas tree.
In this time on our planet when our family of man is growing to over-crowding, when our resources for sustaining life on this great host, Mother Earth are now seen as finite and the only argument aggrivated by greed and fear is ‘how long’ before we have soiled our nest beyond repair and destroyed the world and future of our children’s children…it is
imperative that we listen.
Listen to ourselves.
Listen to each other.
Listen to our hearts…to everyone’s heart,
To our fears…remembering that everyone fears,
To our dreams…remembering that everyone dreams,
And to each and every one’s
yearning to love and be loved.
To forgive ourselves our
Flight from fear
Remembering that fear is not the enemy.
It is in our lives for a reason:
To lead us to our hearts and our ability to love.
To put our hands together
And honor our with all our hearts
Our ability…our gift as humans
To be able to choose to embrace the truth of our
Mortality with compassion for ourselves
In our struggle and
Compassion for others in theirs.
In this moment together
In our common darkness.
Wish with all our souls
For the light.
For it is here.
Within each and every one of us.
March 22, 2007
You shouldn't have...but you did...and I will enjoy every moment of your gift.
Amanda, Monika, Karen, Louise, Sandi and Sandy, Vanessa, Russell and
To all the fans,
March 25, 2006
'To all you fans who have so generously and thoughtfully remembered my birthday. Please excuse me for not answering each card and gift personally,...and please accept my thanks via this website for all your support and caring. It's a wonderful way to experience your birthday, having such a beautiful mirror held up to myself. Of course, you all know how I grouse about not deserving it. And there is a part of me that does feel that way. There's also another part of me that is truly humbled by your appreciation and support and I only hope that I conduct myself in the rest of my life to warrant such respect.
Now, there was a piece forwarded to me by Pam Meserve...a dialogue that some of you have had about my comment about 'people creating their gods in order to eat them.' Ordinarily, I would let it lie and let those who felt they understood what I was trying to say try to explain to those who took offense at it...and let things work themselves out. However, being Paul, I have never passed up an opportunity to shoot myself in the foot, so I'll try again.
I first made that comment to a reporter well into the four year run of S&H. Over time I have repeated it here and there. Let me assure you, I don't consider myself a god. Anymore than all of us are god and god is in all of us. What I was and do speak to is the sociological phenomenon of idol worship which we all as human beings need to do, myself included). The reason we need to do it is that we are all mortal. We all have to deal with death, our fear and powerlessness in the face of death. It is not something we rationally choose to do, but rather it is something that is borne out of our effort to feel empowered. So we take people that have accomplished something we consider special, be it true or not..(because it is all about our perception), and we adore them because they were able to do that in the face of their fear. We adore and adorn them because we want to celebrate that one of our kind can, in fact accomplish something in the face of our fear, and at the same time, we want to find ourselves, our likeness as humans in them. So no sooner do we elevate them than we feel we need a piece of them. An autograph, photograph, piece of clothing...to feel, know, touch, be touched, 'eat' them. (in ancient, pagan cultures, this person-made-god would literally be eaten).
So this is a fact of human behavior. It is not me referring to myself as God. It is me referring to, or explaining how I view the act of 'celebrity.' It's a sociological phenomenon that has been borne out by history over and over and over. We as humans need to identify the god in each of us, in all of us as well as us in our experience of God. There. That's my attempt at explaining. I truly do not wish to offend, or even preach to anyone. I hope you will understand.
Again, much thanks for all the remembrance of my birthday. This life is a hell of a ride, isn't it?
January 11, 2006:
"I would like to thank you each individually, but that isn't possible, so I am sending you a collective 'thank you' for your generosity, your care and warm wishes through these holidays, and yes, even in advance of my birthday.
March 25, 2005
"I would like to thank each and every one of you for your birthday wishes. I'm having a fine day and a fine life. I am blessed. To all of you, best of everything, love throughout, a life with grace. Paul"
December 16, 2004
On December 16th 2004, Paul sent his poem expressing his sentiments of the season to be shared with all his fans.
Thank you Paul for your continued generousity in the spirit of giving.
Listen to the Silence